I've been having a lot of negative thoughts lately. And it's one of those situations (every situation?) where I can't take my own advice. If this were happening to a friend, I'd tell them to put it into perspective--look to all the good in your life. It's just not working for me right now. Everything feels overwhelming and impossible, which is an especially terrible feeling in law school because I have to be at the top of my game all the time. There is very little room for breaking down...or just taking a break. The only thing I can think of to get through this without it affecting my school work is to avoid thinking about my stresses. It's tricky. It requires a bit of maneuvering. I can feel a bad thought around every corner lately, so I have to be one step ahead--prepared with the next distraction. I've literally been filling the last few days with as many activities as possible (mostly school work, of course), to make sure that I don't have a free moment to think too much. This doesn't sound very healthy, I know. But until I figure out how to remedy the anxiety, it seems to be the only solution that doesn't involve me locking myself in the apartment for the rest of the week and watching the 9 episode of "Unsolved Mysteries" I have taped on my DVR.
That is the most negative I can write without feeling guilty. I'll be back when I have something nice to say.
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